It is funny what hormone imbalance can do to you.
You start to miss those who don't matter in your life anymore.
You start to miss your past.
You changed the TV channels, and Paycheck was on, and you remember, that was one of the movies you watched with him long long time ago. The one that made him roll his eyes because you were head over heels with Ben Affleck, yet he patiently accompanied you to all Ben Affleck movies you wanted to see.
You went to Penang road to get the customary jeruk to bring home. You had your hands full, they were heavy & you have to quickly find your way back to the parking, hundreds of metres away.
You paused & remember that you didn't have to carry those back then. You didn't even have to walk back to the car, for he would go get the car and pick you.
You start to miss every single thing about him.
You play with your food at iftar, you missed the conversation, you missed not having to deshell the shrimps. (ah sweet lah sangat kononnya kopekkan udang, duhhh!)
...and when it all balanced, you get back to normal.
Budus, kau takde kerja eh nak recall semua tu?
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