over there, here & somewhere

Over there,
Ayah is doing good and he's back at home with his hand in cast. Alhamdulillah. Thank you for all the well wishes & prayers. To tell you the truth I prefer to have him at the hospital rather than at home, knowing Ayah, even in the hospital he can go to almost all floors visiting friends & sedara mara in the wards (and left his handphone on his bed and all my calls unanswered), ape lagi kalau dia balik rumah. I'm not surprised if one of these days he'll be up on his bike again altho having one hand in cast. It is not easy to ask a 73 year old healthy man to sit still and do nothing. Mak will have to nag a lot these days.

My aunt still in the hospital, doc said she has 50-50 chance but everything is in the hands of God. The hospital becomes 2nd home for my little cousins. They refuse to stay home with the other aunties. They go to school and back to hospital again. If possible they don't even want to leave their mother for a single second.

Here,
Riuh juga berita menteri luar negara ini sakit setelah pulang dari persidangan di KL. Khabarnya digigit 'sesuatu' sampai beliau jatuh sakit yang agak berat, hingga digelar 'penyakit misteri' (misteri sangatkah?), sampai terpaksa dikuarantin. Bila ditemuramah setelah beliau sihat, beliau cuma berkata bahawa beliau digigit 'sesuatu' dikaki dan terkena virus, entah apa agaknya 'sesuatu' yang membawa 'virus' itu. Digigit nyamuk aedeskah?

Weekend was fun but a bit tiring. I was 'unconscious' (read: tak sedar diri) for pushing myself too hard trying to keep up with the young girls on the netball court during our netball tournament. My joints and muscles had a big shock, I’ve been inactive for too long. As the result, I had to jalan slowly like orang dalam pantang. Jadi ayu & sopan santun jalan pelan-pelan! I could not sit down or get up without the ‘adussss’ sound effect.

With the aching muscles and butts, I went to Hoyts later at night to watch the Lake House. Almost doze off half way through. I didn't blame the movie, I was very tired and sleepy- not really in a romantic mood. I did not click with the story and I have one comment to make: I think most main characters in love stories are selfish. What makes them think that just because they are so much in love it is okay for them to hurt others in their lives. One second you hold the hand of someone who cares for you, and the next minute you run away for ‘the love of your life’. Can you really find happiness that way?

Somewhere...
in dreamland I met you. I woke up wondering why you’re back in my dreams again. How did you find your way there? Did I call you in my sleep? Please, if you ever hear me calling, do not come. Just ignore me. I don’t want to see you ever again. Not in my dreams, not in reality, not in this lifetime.

keliru

I'm posting in my bahasa ibunda today.

Otakku tidak mahu berehat malam ini. Sudah puas mata ini kupejam tapi masih juga tak mahu tidur. Fikiran sudah melayang merentas 7 benua. Dalam kesunyian malam, dapat kudengar bunyi itu dengan jelas. Keroncong ada, hip hop pun ada. Bunyi apa? bunyi perut mintak diisi. Padanlah.. kali terakhir makan tepat jam 7 tadi dan kini sudahpun 7 jam berlalu.

Lantasku bangun ke dapur. Jerang air. Nak makan apa ya? Roti masih banyak, tapi dah bosan nak makan roti bakar dengan majerin dan madu. Mee segera Yoodle masih banyak lagi. Nasib baik masih ada cendawan dan telur di peti sejuk. Boleh jadi penambah perisa. Tekakku memang mengada-ngada. Kalau mee segera kosong tak ditambah apa-apa, susah benar nak menelan.

Berbekal semangkuk mee segera bercendawan & telur dan secawan teh lemon, kududuk menghadap peti tv di dapur. BBC News sedang ke udara. Selepas itu terus menonton BBC Hard Talk. Isunya Isr@el dan Lubn@n. Tetamu perbincangan adalah dua pelajar di UK, seorang dari Lubn@n dan seorang dari Isr@el. Menonton perbincangan itu, kuteringat dilema yang aku sendiri alami.

Semenjak dua menjak ini bila terbaca kisah Lubn@n, hati pilu, sedih, marah dengan kekejaman Isr@el. Aku juga mengutuk kekejaman Y@hudi. Tapi bila aku berjumpa dengan rakanku yang seorang itu, aku jadi keliru. Dia rakan yang baik dan kukenali seluruh keluarganya. Aku tau dia juga sebahagian dari 'tentera' Isr@el kerana dia juga pernah mengikuti khidmat negara di negara tanah tumpahnya itu. Dia sendiri menceritakannya padaku. Walaupun dia turut mengkritik dasar negaranya sendiri, dia tetap pulang berkhidmat untuk negaranya dari semasa ke semasa. Maka andainya dia dikehendaki pulang bila-bila masa kenegaranya untuk berperang dengan Lubn@n, dia juga akan menjadi sebahagian dari tenaga pemusnah itu.

Disaat aku bertemunya tempoh hari, tiba-tiba wajah-wajah penderitaan di Lubn@n terlintas kemataku. Terdetik perasaan marah padanya. Tapi masih kubendung. Adilkah aku turut menyalahkan dia atas apa yang berlaku di sana?

Keliru.

Sememangnya aku keliru.

Reports from KT H0spital

I received sad news from home last night.

Ayah had a bike accident and currently warded for his fractured arm.

My aunt, Ayah's youngest half sister is also in the hospital with lung failure. She's terminally ill & fighting for her life now. She's a single mother with 5 young daughters after her husband died of heart attack a few years ago. I can't stop thinking of her and the girls.

My cousin had a stroke.

Another Makcik, Mak's cousin is very ill at the same hospital.

Another Makcik, Ayah's cousin died of cancer last week.

*Al Fatihah*

Please pray with me.

(break continued)

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I'm taking a break from blogging & blogreading.

I'll be back, I promise.

Please miss me.. hehe..

Once in a blue moon

- moon in Canterbury - 12072006 - 0116 -

Oh bulan mana bintang
Atas puncak kayu ara
Oh tuan mana hilang
Dalam dapur atas para

Apasal tuan tu duk dalam dapur atas para? I wonder.

I almost slept in my car last night. I wanted to.. so I could lie there enjoying the moonlight.. but I did not. I'm not that gila yet. I hate my bedroom! I can't see the moon from the bedroom window and the moonlight doesn't fall on my bed. I should take note of this. Next time if I go looking for a room to rent, I have to go take a look at the room at night and check on moon visibility. I'm not Puteri Lindungan Bulan (who is PLB anyway?) but moonlight is THAT important to me.

Don't you just love the moon?