can I not feel?

I thought I've mastered the art of letting go
but no
I failed miserably
It hurts.

Can someone please shoot me?
I mean, literally.

..and it continues.. for how long? I don't know...

I had a very good sleep last night... after weeks of sleepless nights. Not that I do my work throughout the nights, it was just my mind refused to 'shut down' although my body really needed some rest. I woke up at every 1/2 - 1 hour intervals with thoughts that kept bugging me. That, made me cranky throughout the next day. Penat la kalau everyday gitu...

Dani, at the All Blacks meet the fan session. Sangat comel! *melting*

I'm not sure what drugged me to a very good sleep last night. It could be either that sweetest smile Dani gave me while signing my muffler yesterday or the Taste of Bengal korma that I ate for dinner (lamb korma was yummy... but Dani looks yummier! :P). All I know, by 9.30pm I was already in deep slumber on the couch, in the warmth of my living room (my bedroom is freezing cold!) until the Athan software on my laptop popped up and called out for the fajr prayer (selalunya nak abis subuh baru celik! itu pun kalau tak terbabas). Finally today, I woke up happy, not cranky!

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I was shocked when anon from NZ left a nasty comment on my blog last week. Don't go look for the comment, I permanently deleted it because it was too obscene, I cringed. The moron used XTRA with IP 210.54.112.251 and he/she wrote 'graphical' profanities. A bloggerfriend said that it sounded like Mat Rempit. Mat Rempit goes global you see! The comment had nothing to do with me or my posts, he/she wanted to badmouth another person that I only know the name, but never met. What the heck..? The choice of vulgarities made me believe that the moron is a Malay, and a very kurang ajar one. The words, if anyone use it in front of me, memang aku cili cilikan mulut tu. Kau ape hal? Kalau tak puas hati kat orang lain, jangan mencarut kat blog aku lah!

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Finally I get the chance to try making Winter Warmer Fish Porridge I saw on May's blog. I used monkfish fillet. I'm not a fan of spring onions, so I had mine with pickled radish, sesame oil and soy sauce with lime juice & onion. Super simple, yet super yummehhh. Makan tak ingat dunia I tell you!

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I know I have a few long overdue tags... May, Karina, Manal (err.. who else? raise your hand!)... will do 'em when I have the time. Tungguuuuuuuu...

Ubi: You're never here when I need you...

pause

no need to check this blog for the next 2 weeks or so...

*hibernate mode*
winter la katakan....

Ubi: stop counting my eye bags lah!

updates... and eye candy

Update laa ur blog, said a friend, KI on YM last week.

The blog has been on a back burner. I did not write much on the last few posts.. posted only songs and pics. Another friend bet that the next post will appear one the next full moon.. sorry mate, I suddenly feel like responding to KI. So here, pieces of unrelated paragraphs..

I'm gonna get another niece/nephew.. sis in law (lil bro's wife) is pregnant. I envy her because she's 10 years my junior but she's already on her way to be a mom. I'm 30 and all I do is waste my mature follicle every month, without fail. I kinda think that my PMS is actually my body's mourning session over the death of an ovum.

That homeless man who purposely robbed a bank to land himself in jail knew too well that this was going to be a cold winter. I can't imagine sleeping out there on the street or in a park with the temperature at -4c like last night. Brrrr....

frost, this morning

“…no wedding Saturday within the month of June” Stevie Wonder (1962).
Why not Stevie? PakLah had it on Saturday. Congratulations, Sir.
I missed some friends' & relative's weddings in June. One more coming in July. Have to miss that one too... sorry girl. Cannot go home lar... anyway, Congratulations & Selamat Pengantin Baru!

As requested by some readers in my post exactly a month ago, ladies and gents alike, I present you topless D@niel C@rter or popularly known among my friends as Abang Dani *cough*. Please click for a bigger view. I feel like a pimp for putting this up... hehehe. All photos belong to J0ckey the seluar kecik brand, I just put them together. Sharing is caring, no? For the record, I didn't have these in my collection, had to google to get them (now I have 'em all!). See, I made the effort to please you all, especially you Miss-I-want-topless! That photo with white background looks a little jambu doncha think? Anyway, he will continue to be on many more billboards and give spectacular performance on rugby fields.

eyyy... stop staring la!

Anyone wanna join me watch All Blacks on July 14th? Jom lahhhh!

Ooookkkk.. now I have to go write on something else, somewhere else. Donno when is the next update la.. see how lah.



Ubi: perlukah kehadiran itu kusambut? atau perlukah kulari jauh-jauh? bisakah aku??.. ceh.. ayat...

oh bulan tolonglah daku....

Malam bulan dipagar bintang

Tambah seri cuaca malam
Murni sungguh ciptaan Tuhan
Bulan bintang lampu alam

Andai kata bintang menyepi
Bulan tidak berseri
Malam menjadi sunyi
Tidak berseri lagi

Bulan Dipagar Bintang - P. Ramlee

Blue Moon
You saw me standing alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue Moon
You know just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
Someone I really could care for

Blue Moon - Frank Sinatra

Di bawah bulan purnama
Dipagar bintang beribu
Hatiku terasa ria
Kekanda di samping daku

Di Bawah Bulan Purnama - R Azmi & Rokiah Wanda

Fly me to the moon
Let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On a-Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby, kiss me

Fly Me to the Moon - Frank Sinatra

Biarlah bulan bicara sendiri
Biarlah bintang kan menjadi saksi
Tak kan kuulangi walau sampai akhir nanti
Cukup derita sampai di sini

Biarlah Bulan Bicara - Broery Marantika

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all are tonight's photos...

lagu-lagu tu tak de kena mengena, saja suka

beware of werewolves!
(a community service message)