givin' up?

"I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am"

Those are Mraz's words. I'm borrowing.
I'm amazed with myself for not walking away from you yet.
What changed me? I don't know.
I need help to understand myself now.
You, I don't even know what I actually see in you. 
Arghhhhh!!!


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my hero

The man of my life turned 80 yesterday.

Happy Father's Day Ayah!

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#478

Mood saya tak baik.
Kadang-kadang saya cuba jadi baik, tapi percubaan untuk bersabar dengan perangai orang sangat taxing. Rasa penat jiwa.
Enough lah.
Again, I was told to be patient.
They say good things come to those who wait.
I cannot wait anymore 'coz the one I was advised to wait for isn't that good anyway. So why bother?


Thank God it's Friday.



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Washing machine

Kuala Kubu Baru.27.05.12

When life gets a little mundane, I need the adrenaline rush to keep me going. 

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Ever... rest?

Satu malam saya tengok dokumentari orang Malaya nak panjat Everest. Memang saya tak la bercita-cita sampai nak ke puncak Everest, tapi kalau dapat pergi dekat-dekat situ pun saya dah puas hati. Lepas tu baca pulak cerita  nenek ni panjat Everest (dan sampai puncak!) at 73y.o. Kagum sehhhhhh... Last April, adelah sorang hamba Allah tu, pada pertemuan buta pertama, dia tanya "would you be interested to go to Everest base camp?". Omak aiiiiii... tetiba akak rasa "i have to keep this man!" keh keh keh.... malangnya. Itu cuma impresi yang diberi pada pertemuan pertama. Sekarang, ajak naik Bukit Jambul pun tak nak. Hishhhh... buang karan ajer. Dah lah, pegi main jauh2.



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