Tuesday morning..

If you hear some noise outside at half past 2am, that was me wheeling out the rubbish bin to the roadside. Things I do when I can't sleep. Tuesday is garbage collection day. While standing out there I saw the lovely quarter moon. Went in to get my camera but the photo didn't turn out good, my hands were shaking.

It's already past 3am when I'm writing this. Almost 4. I don't feel like going back to bed. I've been tossing and turning in bed since 7pm after taking some meds. Am not feeling well. Every cough is like pulling everything out from my body cavity. Got up thinking that I needed another dose of meds and realized I ate nothing since 12 hours ago. Again, made noise in the kitchen chopping mushroom for some mushroom soup. Now the bowl is emptied and I gulped down 2 tablets. Tunggu masuk perut jap.. nanti tido la.

Received txt msg from Sis#3 telling that my niece asked what got for my UPSR, SRP & SPM results. Replied, and asked why she wanted to know. Afifah needs to do a family history for a school assignment and she has to choose one successful 'tokoh'. She chosed you. Bertokoh ke aku ni? Ipah dear, you must be comparing your aunts according to what they achieve academically. Please stop doing that to measure 'success'. For all I know I wished I could have the kind of life like my siblings'. Simple, happy and in barakah.

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31 days to go... a friend told me that she'll be in Paris for the RWC this year. Jeles wehhhh!!

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The kind of mellow song that lulls me to sleep...

James Morrison - Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I'll show how I'm feeling
.....until all the feeling has gone.

Ubi: good night.. err.. morning!*sipping hot lemon & honey*

Gratitude...

~Mount Hutt~

Thank you God for the eyesight... Thank you for granting me the chance to enjoy the beauty of the world You created.

~Full moon 300707~

Ubi: walking alone in the moonlight... what a bliss!!!

meneropong masa silam yang telah terlewat

Eversince I turned 30, every 26th of the month scares me. What the hell is this thirty-ritis fever I'm having?

Hmmm... perhaps that's because I planned out too many things to achieve/do/have before I turn 30 (I planned it way back since I was 12! talk about planning wayyyyy ahead)... and I passed that 30 milestone already, and every weeks and months that passed after that just freaked me.


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Downloaded a few Ebiet G.Ade's songs from the net. I'm old skool like dat (told my flatmates I'm listening to Ebiet, and the respond was "who's that?". Hmm... they're 80's kids!) . I don't know all his songs though, I could name only a handful and now I'm listening to unfamiliar ones.. Love 'em.. so soothing to my ears. I wanna put em here.. but I'm just clueless on how to do it (I only know how to put photos & vids from youtube!).

I love this one:


Tatkala Letih Menunggu- Ebiet G.Ade

Menunggu ada kalanya terasa mengasyikkan
Banyak waktu kita miliki untuk berfikir
Sendiri seringkali sangat kita perlukan
meneropong masa silam yang telah terlewat

Mungkin ada apa yang kita cari
masih tersembunyi di lipatan waktu yang tertinggal
Mungkin ada apa yang kita kejar
justru tak terjamah saat kita melintas

Menunggu lebih terasa beban yang membosankan
Banyak waktu kita terbuang tergilas cuaca
Sendiri seringkali sangat menyakitkan
Meneropong masa depan dari sisi yang gelap

Mungkin ada apa yang kita takuti
justru t'lah menghadang di lembaran hari-hari nanti
Mungkin ada apa yang kita benci
justru t'lah menerkam menembusi seluruh jiwa kita

Memang seharusnya kita tak membuang semangat masa silam
Bermain dalam dada
setelah usai mengantar kita tertatih-tatih sampai di sini


Ubi: cheh... poetic giler post title

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Friday 27th.

Please sedekah AlFatihah to Hajah Ngah Abd Rahman, my aunt who passed away this morning.
~Al Fatihah~

the good, the bad, the ugly... and (not) the good kind..

photosource: stuff.co.nz

The Good:

All Blacks won both Bledisloe & Tri-nation Rugby Cup last night in Auckland. Yeayyyyy!! ( but I did not get to watch the live telecast). The score was All Blacks 26-12 Wallabies, very nice number.

The Bad:

I had a superstressing week. .. err.. make that a fortnight. My wacko hormones during that time of the month made everything worse. I could be as happy as a lark at times and cry buckets in the next minute. Things just happened to know the right time to go wrong, workwise and lifewise. I was losing sleep, losing appetite, throwing up, had headache and diarrhea all at the same time. But there's a good outcome from that, I lost the kilos I gained in the past months! Yeayyyyyy! No dieting needed. *dig clothes pile to get old jeans*

photosource: stuff.co.nz

The Ugly:
"Enjoy rugby in the capital of love" A Rugby World Cup advert that made me go EUWWWWW!!! so gay! This one must be computer generated and I think it is just hideous.
Note to Dani (as if he's reading!), I don't care if you wanna give killer poses in those Jockey undies advert, but don't ever be a model for such ad like this. Disgusting! (no yeay for this one)

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I did buang tebiat last night. I was feeling down as in SUPER LOW earlier this week and really needed to do something to steam off in a healthy way. So on Tuesday when M pleaded me (in C's words "with Shrek's Puss in boots look") to join her performing, I said yes... which freaked me later on. Despite the aching squeaking joints I get from the practices, it proved to be a great stress reliever. So while Dani was breaking his back fighting the Wallabies last night, I was on stage hoping that the floor would open up and swallow me .

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just feel like singing....

'Do you wanna run away together?'
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it...
(The Good Kind-The Wreckers)

Ubi: Moving on...

Black Saturday

All Bl@cks won 33-6 against Springb0ks last night. That sounds like a good number but Springb0ks left their best 20 players at home. So it was the All Bl@cks against B-grade Springb0ks. Not very impressive as AB was struggling in the first half. I was also struggling for a view to watch the game. The guy in front of me was tall enough to block me when he was sitting, it got worse when he stood up at every 2-5 minutes intervals. Rasa nak cantas aje kepala dia. Some Jap@nese girls beside us were giggling and screaming every time D@n C@rter was in sight, hey.. you want to "ooooh... ahhhh" before and after the match, I can accept-lah, but don't do it during the match, annoying ok! Sangat mengganggu konsentrasi! The guys behind me were the worst of all, they were swearing out loud using almost every vulgarities known to kiwis right from the start until the end of the match. I wanted to feed them my shoes, really.

line out warm up

the real McCaw

McCaw & Carter (sape South African kat belakang tu I tak tau nama)

Gambar Dani wajib la ada kan... hehe

Most pics are shaky because I was shivering. Sejuk!

In the archive: My first rugby post and I still think Rokocoko rocks!