Cukup

Semenjak dah tua ni, dah tak rasa rajin nak berkenalan & buat kawan baru. Maaf kalau org jumpa saya dan rasa saya 'dingin'. Well, kalau nasi baru masak disimpan lama pun dia jadi nasi dingin jugak, dok? Kalau jumpa org baru setakat bertanya nama okey lah. Kalau nak tanya banyak, saya rasa rimas nak menjawab. Rasa penat.

Mungkin sebab saya memang dah lama menjadi introvert yg berusaha untuk jadi friendly. Dah habis tenaga itu. Saya dah tua dan dah habis kederat utk melayan perbualan baru yg bertanya hal2 lama.

Dengan kawan lama tak apa. Hanya sekumpulan kecil yg masih saya hubungi hampir setiap hari. Mereka ini yg saya sudah paham tebiat masing2. Kami hormat ruang masing2 & perbezaan yg ada. 

Kepada yang baru hadir, 'trust me it's not you, it's me. ignore me. I'm just tired. Please leave.'

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Maldives aku datang

Katanya destinasi bulan madu.

Habis kalau bulannya tak juga jatuh ke riba takkan nak tunggu sampai dapat dua batu nisan?

Pergi saja, tak perlu tunggu bulan madu, tak perlu tunggu sesiapa.

Allah bagi rezeki, bermusafirlah lihat keindahan ciptaanNya. 

Indah. Cukup indah.

(ini cuma sneak peek)

 

Sweet dreams are made of these!

So beautiful, I almost cried when It was time to go back.

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38

Turned 38 yesterday. 

Mak gave birth to me when she was 38, her 8th child. I'm 38 and I have no kids. 

Life is great and Allah has given me more than I deserved. 

Let me say that again, I am now 38, single and LOVIN' IT!

I 've been telling myself that I have my mom's genes so I put her 'getting last child at 38' as my bench mark. If I want to get married and have kids, I would have to do it BEFORE I turn 38. After that date, I might as well plan on keeping all my savings for a good full service nursing home.

Aaaaaanyway, on my 38th birthday I had breakfast with friends from Lincoln and spent the rest of the day with friends from high school. Had a great time, we just talk and talk and talk! you don't need anything else when you can talk endlessly (and we did that a lot over food!).

Alhamdulillah for the lovely friends... 

We stayed at Spices H0tel, a lovely boutique hotel on Lumut Lane in George Town and I received a birthday cake, on the house! 

If you're looking for a place to stay in George Town, I highly recommend Spices H0tel (click here to read more on the hotel). If you appreciate design and architecture, this is an awesome restoration of pre-war shophouses. 

Vanity

Out there, there are beautiful people.

Beautiful and attractive.

Being confident is beautiful... But when a person keeps posting selfies & photos of oneself on daily basis - that's not confidence, that's vanity.

Narcissism is not attractive. Neither is overexposure. 

December

There is something about December. I always feel apprehensive at the start of December. It is the month where my age will change and this whole thing about not achieving what I want in life comes back to haunt me. At least for 11 months a year, I accept that there are things that I cannot change, and some things are just meant to be the way they are now, but not for December. Every December for the past 10 years, things just kill me.... and I am my worst critic.